Hello, dear friends! I apologize for once again slacking off with the blogging. I know I said so many times in the past that I was going to blog more often, but I keep failing. Not that I have nothing interesting to share. I do. Sometimes I have something which sounds really funny in my head, or like, I have something that I want to share about my day, but when I start writing about it, I lose it. I’m just not a writer, is all, and it frustrates me. Even more frustrating is how this website was supposed to be my creative outlet, an avenue for my beaded jewelry and scrap pages… so far, I only have links to other peoples’ stuff. Nothing mine. I find it really disappointing. Let’s not forget the part how being jobless means no funding for hobbies or passions.

Let’s see. It’s been six months, and (in case you missed the part where I said it, let me reiterate) I still don’t have a job. I am frustrated, and I think I am slipping into depression. I don’t really know what being depressed is like. All I know is that I haven’t felt good about anything in a long while, and every day feels like a waste. I try not to talk so much about it, as it doesn’t help having people think of me as hopeless or helpless. Seriously, it’s not like I’m not trying. I mean, I do try to be productive given my circumstances. I also have been submitting applications for Special Ed positions and retail stores here and there. Still, no dice. So yeah, things have been crazy, like wild crazy, in my world.

Six. Frickin. Months.

Luckily, there are still some good stuff. (Thank goodness, right?) Like, I am finally a California credentialed Special Ed teacher. And I am still married to Felix. And Nate is doing really well in 9th grade. And we have Medi-Cal with free prescription refills. And we have a car. And I have volunteer work. And a new laptop. And tomorrow’s a brand new day.

P.S. I know, I know! I will post pictures of the necklace I made using the Swarovski crystals and components given to me on my birthday. I will also post some of the projects I made back in Manila. Those are good stuff, too!