Mon December 13, 2004
I Feel Like Doing A Whole Lot Of Nothing...
...And top of the list is to sleep all day, but there's just so much to do. The hangover from last Saturday night's party hasn't disappeared, and it's getting really annoying. Spent the whole day yesterday asleep, took two Advils and it's still there. Hangovers can be a real pain in the ass, or the head, rather. And I never learn.
Yesterday's fun, though. Had my fitting with Mars and Dimples and Jay, and then met up with Janlo and Dre for coffee around eleven. Got home at past 2 am, and had to be up around 5:30 to get Nate ready for school. Sooo, I decided to postpone sleep and to do it instead the soonest he gets picked up by the school bus, which was like around 6:30. Sigh. This lifestyle is going to kill me one of these days, I swear.
I'm tired. Although I do have a lot of things to say right now about my weekend, I suddenly lost it. Perhaps it will come to me later.
I'm just real happy Dimples is here.
Thur December 9, 2004
I Believe...
...I saw Polar Express yesterday with my mom and Nate. It was awesome. The storyline, the animation -- oh my god, the aurora borealis even! Before I saw the movie I thought, if performance capture makes it all look "real", then why not do the real thing instead? But now I understand why animation is a whole lot better. Endless possibilities. Astig, promise. And then there was this part when this girl said something like, "It's just like how I dreamed it would be..." and I got all goosebumpy, because I thought of that myself. Only thing though is that Santa was, uhm, a lot thinner and more goodlooking than I imagined. Thinking that seeing Santa was the highlight of the movie, I sort of felt disappointed. I always imagined Santa would look something like the Santa on the Coca-Cola cans. My concept of Christmas is so commercialized, haha.
But I do love Christmas and I believe in the real reason why we celebrate it. The true spirit of Christmas lies in your heart. I know you believed in the Christmas spirit at one point in your life. Cliche.
Anyway, I decided not to purchase the coral butterfly Havaianas. It can wait. I am not gonna die from the lack of it. Then I'm meeting Mars later for our gown fitting. I hope we can already plan for the bridal shower after. I listed down some ideas and I want to discuss it with her. I want to have answers, real ones, if in case someone asks me. And I don't want to disappoint Dimples.
Fri December 3, 2004
Lucy, I'm home...
...Did you miss me? I did. It's been like, what, a month? And I haven't designed a website for so long I've almost forgotten how to make one. There's been a delay in updating, my bad. I got caught up with a whole lot of nothing. Thanks for sticking around.
Update #1
I saw the Bridget Jones Diary: The Edge of Reason premiere with Carisse -- for free. And you know what they say, anything free is good. The movie was funny, but the evening was funnier. You had to be there to know what I'm talking about. Going back to Bridget (we're on a first name basis)... I'm sure by now everyone has seen it. But I think you will agree that the first one was a lot spunkier than this one.
Update #2
I didn't really think I could get addicted to a PC game until Sims2. I have been a solid Sims fan for years. Never bought the pirated version, and all the expansion packs were product registered online. I really thought Sims was the shizz. And then there was Sims2. Maxis outdid themselves once again. Congratulations, geeks.
Ok, I'm bored, and it's not funny. Spanish is spanishing, the playgroup is going, and life is boring. I could do so much, really, but then it just all boils down to lack of monetary funds. And so the cycle goes. Now is the perfect time for something different. I just have no idea what. I wonder if things would be different if I had a boyfriend. Maybe. Ok, so maybe not. Then again all this feeling is just probably because I'm done with my compre, and now there's nothing exciting in my life other than Sims2 and this huge zit on my chin. Which brings me to my last update.
The highlight of the month -- I am done with my comprehensive exams! I dunno when I'm gonna get the results. I just hope I passed all subjects, because it would suck if I'd have to take another exam again. Foundations of SPED and Assessment in SPED weren't so bad, but dude, Curriculum in SPED and Statistics blew me away. Worse than having to sing ABC backwards. But seriously, they were tough. Why I allow myself to go through such torment is because I am plain old suicidal. But I'm just glad it's over. Thanks, brain, you're the best!
Now if I can just find my missing so-called social life...
Oh, one last thing. I would love to hear what you think about my new layout. If you find any links that don't wanna work, I'd really appreciate the information. I am still working on some of the stuff, I just need time. At the moment I am on the verge of smashing this unit and pulling my hair off the roots. So if you can just be bothered, thanks.
Wed October 27, 2004
Oh, wow...
...I just spent A LOT of money on clothes the past week. Problem with me is when I start spending, there's no stopping, especially when I know I still have the money to spend. Bad, bad, bad. I am supposedly broke. So I'm gonna put a stop to my shopping spree by surrendering all my cash in hand to my mom. I should also tell her to NOT give me the money no matter what, be it a life and death situation. Who knows what reason I can think of? After all, shopping is a life and death situation for me.
I realized I haven't updated my blog since the Face Off night (the night the pink flats effortlessly murdered my feet). Except for the choppers all over the place (and my dying feet), the night was actually pretty cool. Food was decent. Actually it was good, for something free. It was open bar the entire night, but like I'd drink Jack Daniels. I don't think so. But yeah, I had fun, considering. That night, it dawned on me that I am too old for that kind of scene. Sigh. But I went there for Carisse, and she was worth watching, blisters and all. I hope she wins - I can see how much she enjoys herself with this whole new thing she's doing. And she looks good on-cam.
I still can't believe the things I heard from the interview. I am really elated, but at the same time I can't help but be pessimistic. It's like I've been working my ass off the past two years for a break like this, and now that it finally happened, it scares me that things just might not go the way I want them to. Everything is up in the air, nothing is set on stone. March is still a long time from now, a lot can happen. But I really know my heart's set on leaving for California (or bumfart Ohio even). I just want it to happen so badly, and you know how it's like when you want something real badly, the more it seems like you're never gonna get it. I hate it when I get so negative about things. I need to shake all the negativity off before it swallows me whole.
Mars and I finally had our measurements taken. It deserves having an entirely different entry, but I can't be bothered at the moment. I'm gonna be real busy this week and the next three weeks thereafter (that's a month, in case you're on 1st grade math). I'm dedicating my entire life the next few weeks reviewing for my comprehensive exam, which, for your information, starts this Saturday. So if you don't hear from me, it's not because I have neglected my relationship with this site (again). My plans for a new layout can wait until end of November. Told you I can be responsible.
Fri October 22, 2004
So I may be that kind of person...
...And I'm not gonna deny it. I will judge you from the kind of music you listen to and the kind of movies you enjoy watching. Only because I have proven once too many times that I could easily tell the depths of the person based on the movies they enjoy watching. Insufficient for me to know the kind of person they are, but enough to make me decide if I even wanna spend another minute listening to what they have to say about reincarnation or the Big Bang Theory or the Iraq war or even the marines. Now if you were driving a Range Rover and you asked me out on a date, that's a whole different story. We can talk about anything all night long, baby, even if your all-time favorite movie is Mariah Carey's Glitter and you love singing to Achy Breaky Heart.
I finally bought the Pretty Fit pink flats. Ended up buying three different tops to go with my new baby. Goodbye K700i.
Normally I get to sleep soundly after shopping, but last night was an exception. I was just about to get ready for bed when Carisse messaged me regarding the interview for Chula Vista. I'm scheduled for an interview later at noon. And I am feeling hella nervous at the moment. Though I know I shouldn't be.
He has more than prepared you for this day. This is not an accident, so just follow through.
Have faith, Nina.
Update: The interview went perfectly well. I don't even know why I worry about things like this. The principal now has my resume, and she wants me to fill up the school district's application forms and then mail it ASAP. The next interview is on March, with the Superintendent or someone. Finally, a tiny light at the end of the tunnel.
The pink flats aren't worth it - for the price I paid. After a few minutes walking around the mall, my feet have already suffered from blisters. The price I have to pay for fashion's sake. Pretty fit? More like ugly feet :-(
Thur October 21, 2004
It's Almost Christmas...
...I should start preparing my hand-made cards. I was thinking of adding a little "something" to them, I just dunno what at the moment. The embellishments will still be there, for sure, but I want more. Probably a photo magnet of me and Nate or one of Nate's art work. The photo magnet idea sounds cool, the problem is I need a Xyron machine for that and I dunno where I can find one. I'd be lucky if I found someone in Manila who knew what a Xyron machine was. I should look around. I should also start making my Christmas list and look for gifts. I don't mind spending, really, thing is, it's quite difficult to spend when you have nothing to spend. Whut.
But I'm warning you, don't ever do, those crazy messed up things that you do. If you ever do, I promise you, I'll be the first to crucify you. Now it's time to prove that you've come back here to rebuild.
Finally got my readings from Lee. Got lost, but made it to his place and back in one piece. It's all good. Must start... reviewing... but, but... ugh. What a struggle.
I'm supposed to get my measurements done for my gown on Dimps' wedding. I said 'supposed to' but who knows. And will definitely go shopping later. I'm running out of clothes and shoes to wear. I wanted to go with Carisse yesterday, but my schedule was too tight. I can do it alone later, but I'm hoping Carisse would be able to join me. The experience is always gooder with a shopping partner. Pink flats, here I come.
Mon October 18, 2004
I have this dull pain on both my legs...
...Must be because they can no longer hold my body weight. Scary thought, really. I need to start worrying about my weight gain. It's no longer amusing. I used to weigh 50 kg, and that was even after giving birth. And now, uhm, yeah, I weigh waaaay heavier, mkay. I think it's about time I did something serious about my weight gain. I know how it is like to be thin and fit. And I miss it.
Anyway, I spent half of the day "walking aimlessly" around town center with Carisse. It was quite fulfilling, in fact, despite my lack of finances. I purposely left my money and ATM card at home for the reason that I didn't want to spend on futile things. Ang hirap. And then there was the pink flats in Pretty Fit, and the pin-striped top from Marks and Spencer. Ayun na. I should go back and get that pair. It's a beauty. But she will be mine. Yes, she will be mine.
On top of my must do list is to get the readings from Lee's house. So tamad though. Will do it tomorrow. Ugh. I feel the more I procrastinate, the more I am delaying what I want with my future. Somebody remind me once again why I got myself into this MA program, please.
I do have a reason to grin right this moment though, and I'm about to print it out and stuff it in my wallet. And yes, he will be mine too. Muwahaha.
Sat October 16, 2004
I was thinking of a new layout...
...But I know I shouldn't at the moment. I may have all the time in the world, thing is, the world will definitely not stand still just so I can do less important things now while I push the more important things in the back seat. I wish things worked that way, though. Besides, I need to figure out first what's wrong with the photos section. I hate the fact that I can't store as much images as I want in freewebs because of the limited space they're giving me. Why does everything have something to do with money?! Blah. For now I'm stuck with villagephotos.
I've been contemplating on dot comming this darn site, despite the fact that only a few know its existence. It would have a sense of purpose if a lot of people actually came to visit and read all the trivial things I post here. I'm not sure if it's worth it, though. NinzyWinzy.com - pretty phat, don't you think?
Whatever happened to Jewel? What did she do to her music?! Did she really have to go poppish and sound lame? What happened to her yodelling?!
I think it's cute that this guy I totally dig likes listening to Liz Phair. She sounds different now, though, compared to how she sounded back in the early 90s. Still poetically explicit, but different. I luff Liz Phair. And I luff him. Hee.
Wed October 13, 2004
You know how it's like...
...When you hear a particular song and then blam - your brain does this weird thing to your senses, making you feel melancholic? And then there are those songs that make you feel really giddy and lighthearted. And then there are those that make you wanna dance without a care in the world. What's amazing is that every song you hear triggers the brain to recall certain events and people in your life - be it a happy memory or a bitter one. You sort of associate a particular song with a particular person or event. Like each time I hear Amber, I remember this guy. Yikes.
Amazing how the human brain works, eh? I learned that Science has discovered only a minute detail about the human brain, and there are still a lot to discover about how the human brain functions. Heard it all from Discovery Channel. And you know if it's from Discovery Channel, it must be true. Now if only my brain could think of amazing things.
Hey, did you know that the P910 has the QWERTY keyboard? Darn Sony Ericsson. I wouldn't be surprised if the next thing they put in their phone was a push button for an expandable SUV or something. Man, what's next after that? They should make a phone and dildo in one. Now imagine that.
Tue October 12, 2004
Superman is Dead...
...Talk about irony, huh? The unthinkable happened. I mean, do you realize the gravity of the situation here? Superman is dead. I seriously feel bad about it, you know. I remember having a crush on Christopher Reeves when I was little. He really was cute, in that superman suit. But in retrospect, I'm not sure if it's the idea of a hot man in a superman suit I fancied or what. Hmm.
I'm such a pirated DVD consumer. I deserve to be strangled repeatedly, I know. I bought Kill Bill 2 (finally), Mean Girls - which doesn't want to run in my player (I should buy one of those DVD players for pirated DVDs), Saved (it looks interesting) and Dodgeball. I haven't seen the last two, though.
Oh, this is worth blogging - I haven't smoked in four months. I had to count twice, because it sure feels longer than that. Oh well. Still, four months is four months. Only a smoker would know what I'm talking about.
I was contemplating on whether I should get my hair trimmed now or after Dimps' wedding.
At any rate, I need to start pulling my act together. Just got word that my compre is scheduled on the 30th of this month, and then on November 6, 13, and 20. I still don't have my readings, which means I have no idea what I'm supposed to be reviewing. I can't cram on this one (although I've said that once too many times in the past and still managed to cram in the end). But really. This is my future. I suddenly felt queasy. I told you I have this huge fear of exams. Kinda like bordering phobia. I hate this.
I think it's getting to the point that is the hardest part.
