Thur June 29, 2006
Hurray For The Rain And Payday!
...Don't you just love it when it rains? Ahh, another reason to be lazy. Gone is the plan to work on my action research. After an exchange of text messages about my paper with Fidji, I had the desire to work on it...
LOL.
So what's a girl like me been up to lately? Work, wife duties, motherhood, and CSI. So busy, I swear *insert sarcasm here*. Wife duties can be a bitch. I want to sleep but I have to take care of husband's needs. I want to watch TV, but I have to partake in a conversation with husband. I want to sleep but I have to take care of... wait, I said that already. Seriously, being the wife is no joke. But it is pure joy... until the fighting begins. Har har. Now, being the mother of two sons is quite a task, I tell you. Sometimes I dunno whose side I'm supposed to be on. And then the eldest son is watching Kill Bill Volume 2 right now with the youngest son, and there goes Black Mamba's eye getting squished on the floor. Being a mother is fun that way.
Work's been, uhm, work. Breezed through the first week of classes like a champ. My new batch of Nursery tots are quite the rambunctious bunch. Why do I love this job? Let me get back to you soon as I remember my answer to that. So part of my responsibility is to come up with a monthly online newsletter. I'm apprehensive about it. I'm not gifted in writing, I suck at the essays. But creativity, that I can proudly claim, "I have the flair!" I just hope the newsletter serves everyone its purpose - to my credit. Haha. We'll see how this one goes. My June issue was uploaded yesterday. The next one is due on the last week of July.
Off subject, I can't wait to see Superman Returns. Word is Kate Bosworth sucks at being Lois Lane. Blah. Perhaps Rachel McAdams would have done a better job? I like her. And then there's Spiderman 3, which will not be out 'til next year, Summer 2007 it said. I love comic-based movies! By the way, have you seen the new black Nintendo DS Lite? Isn't it damn sexy, or is it just me?
Oh, oh, tomorrow night is our first night in Fitness First. That was totally worth blogging.
Fri June 2, 2006
When It Rains, It Really Pours...
...Boy, oh boy, what a rollercoaster ride that was. But I'm back, alive and kicking once again. One step at a time, they all tell us. And that is exactly what we're doing, ever so slowly but surely. I'm just glad Felix and I pulled through and made it to here and now. With much emotional and financial support from all the people who love us and believe in our relationship.
Between staying up til 4 am playing Nintendo DS games, and watching CSI/Supernatural/other gay reality shows, and sleeping til noon, Felix and I have been dating a lot. We've seen in theaters Mission Impossible 3, Silent Hill, Over The Hedge, The Da Vinci Code, X-Men 3 (twice) in a month. I'm glad that despite our current financial situation, we are still able to set aside a little for our leisure. I read in the doctor's brochure the importance of "going out." Also, Felix and I joined Fitness First. Our journey to a healthy lifestyle begins on July.
Last weekend we atttended the Catholic Engaged Encounter. Issues in marriage, such as finances, morality, family planning, communication, forgiveness/healing and what not were covered through talks, reflective questions, and dialogues. We were even taught how to argue. What's nice is that it brought Felix and I and our relationship to a higher level, especially after what we have been through. Thanks to my mom and dad for pushing us to attend it. No regrets, even though the bed bugs got me. Now that was a real bitch.
Anyway, our plan to succeed in this marriage is simple: to love one another unconditionally. Unity over happiness. Yet in that simplicity lies its complexity. Because we are both human beings. We hurt and we get hurt over and over. Most times it feels so much easier to just give up. It's also the most selfish, coward and irresponsible thing to do. Been there, done that. And never again. I love Felix, I really do.
Summer wasn't all that bad. Sure, it sucks that we didn't get to do our choice of beach as planned. We lost a lot, but gained twice as much. And after everything, Felix and I are still together, stronger than ever. That's more than anything I could ask for, really.
Sat May 6, 2006
The Worst of Times...
Girlfriend in a coma, I know
I know, it's serious
Girlfriend in a coma, I know
I know, it's really serious
There were times when I could have murdered her
(But you know, I would hate
Anything to happen to her)
No, I don't want to see her
Do you really think
She'll pull through?
Do you really think
She'll pull through?
Do...
Girlfriend in a coma, I know
I know, it's serious
My, my, my, my, my, my baby, goodbye
There were times when I could have strangled her
(But you know, I would hate
Anything to happen to her)
Would you please
Let me see her!
Do you really think
She'll pull through?
Do you really think
She'll pull through?
Do ...
Let me whisper my last goodbyes
I know - it's serious
Girlfriend in a Coma by The Smiths
Fri March 24, 2006
Unraveling...
...Felix was down the past 24 hours due to some pancake-and-bacon-induced diarrhea. My poor baby. I seriously hate diarrhea, and how it gets the best of me, literally. I could just imagine the pain and discomfort he was going through. But thank goodness he is getting better. Just that being sick is the last thing we want.
On a lighter note, I am excited for tomorrow's workshop about young children and DAP in ECE by an NAEYC representative. Thanks to The Bridge School for sponsoring me. I love how I'm still learning new programs and curricula, songs, teaching technics, and different classroom management styles on a daily basis. It's like there's still so much to learn about young children and about being a teacher. Seven years and still counting!
And for breaking news...
I have never had problems with my menstrual cycle. Hence, when something weird like not getting my period happens, it could only mean one thing.
Dun, dun, dun...
Gestation for nine months. Unbelievable weight gain. Post natal depression. Sleepless nights. Diaper-changing. And, oh my god, breastfeeding. Am I up for it? Felix has expressed his position. Now I am not too sure of mine.
Yeah, it's been ten years. Felix and I have previously discussed our desires to have a baby, thought of names for both a boy and a girl, and even created scenarios and how to deal with our non-existent teenage daughter.
But Felix and I are still in the process of settling, growing in our marriage. Heck, we don't even have our own house yet. Felix is still learning how to deal with a difficult child that is not his. Nate is struggling to find his place in this new family he wasn't born with. It seems everything is just not ready for something as big a responsibility as having a new baby - financially, emotionally, and not to mention physically. Remember the cysts growing in my ovaries? Exactly. It's just... not yet part of the plan. Sigh.
Tomorrow.
Mon March 20, 2006
Instead, Here Is This...
...About a couple weeks ago, Beth Orton guested in The Late Show With David Letterman, singing the single Conceived from her new album "Comfort of Strangers." Beautiful.
I have been a Beth Orton fan since 1996. It was the Don't Need A Reason from her "Trailer Park" album that made me fall in love with the whole languid guitars, paired with the forlorn voice. It never fails to keep me warm each time.
Fortunately, the internet makes listening to her a lot cheaper and convenient.
Conceived
Wanna keep your dream alive
Can I keep it with mine?
But I'm no good for you, I suppose
When you get a cold bath, you still hold me close at night
Never liked you any less
And the world's not such a friendly place, is it?
Can go very cold very quickly
And for a very long time
If the sun by some twist of fate stops giving out its shine
Some of the time the future comes right round to haunt me
Some of the time the future comes round just to see
That all is as it could be, like it?s there to remind me
We've got to wait and see
Didn't ask to be conceived, in a loveless embrace
Still we learn to be a warm sun, around a very cold galaxy
It's just like you said it could be
Oh, it's like you said it would be
Some of the time the future comes right round to haunt me
Some of the time the future comes round just to see
That all is as it should be, like it's there to remind me
We?ve got to let it be
Do, do, doop... do, do, doop, yeah...
I want to accomplish a bajillion realistic things, but I don't know where to start. And right now the bed is calling my name out loud for a sweet slumber. How can I say no to that?
Fri March 17, 2006
I'll Make It Brief...
...The whole cannibalizing on my life as material on a second-rate blog is just getting old for me. I need to do something with this webpage. Something more purposeful. Something to look forward to. Something to showcase the uniqueness in me.
What the frick?
Seriously, this place needs a major make-over. I haven't got the concept. But the plan is there, floating in the air. Then again, who knows. Oh, and the whole "I secretly read your entry so I still have an idea what's going on with your life" is honestly retarded. Guilty.
After all that being said, let me indulge you with a couple of updates. I know you want one.
Classes ended last Wednesday. I had a good year with The Bridge School. I'm renewing my contract, and I'm hoping to get a class of my own. Looking forward.
Finances will be quite a burden this quarter. Nathan's tuition is coming up. Need to raise about 80,000Php for my operation. It's a race against time. It's just good to know I'm in good hands, always.
The paper was pushed once again to the back seat. Hence, I am not graduating. I have failed myself, and I have no one to blame but my lazy ass. I don't feel regret, though.
As for future plans, Felix and I talked about our desire to get our license on SCUBA diving. Maybe that can be one of those things we can share as a couple. I also want to learn how to be good at taking images of ugly things. Then I can use them as material for my upcoming make-over. I'm so excited, I can't contain it.
And you know what, it won't hurt to stop pretending.
Tue February 14, 2006
Be Mine...
...Ahh, Valentine's Day. How was yours? Mine was awesome.
Last night I made cards for my parents, my son, and my husband. The card I made for Felix has this be mine jelly sticker in front. It's so cute.
So I woke up the same time this morning like I normally would. I greeted everyone awake a happy valentine, and went on with the day. After I kissed my son goodbye, I went back inside our room, hoping to suprise Felix with my hand-made card. But the surprise was on me. There, on my pillow, was a box of chocolates, with a card tucked in the ribbon.
Giggling like a school girl, I woke up my husband (who was pretending to be asleep), gave my card, and smothered him with loving kisses. Then we lingered in bed, like a lazy Sunday morning, and enjoyed each other's morning breath. But all good things must come to an end. So thirty minutes past my call time for work, I decided it was time to get ready. But the dozen pink tulips on the dining table with my name written on a post-it note thought otherwise. I squealed, I admired, I teared, and I giggled like a school girl all over again.
Isn't he the most amazing? I know he is.
Felix, once more you have totally swept me off my feet. I love you, too.
Sat February 4, 2006
Why Do You Update Daily?
...I am upset at my mom for handing me a jar of iced tea, instead of brown sugar, for my Korean Beef Stew. Not only is she blaming me for not tasting the damn thing before putting it in the stock, she also wants to put carrots for the sake of pleasing my husband. "Your husband likes carrots." I know that. But do we put carrots in Korean beef stew? NO.
Anyway, worth blogging is that after four years, Beth Orton finally has a new album. Can't wait to listen to all the tracks in the album. I have heard two tracks. Interesting, so far. Have yet to find out how far my interest in this album will go. I just said far three times in one paragraph. I am so talented.
I found inspiration for my new webpage layout. But I want to focus my entire energy the next two weeks to finishing my action research paper. Sometimes writing ideas down isn't enough. I just hope I don't lose the inspiration once again.
On another subject, the Nursery class will be divided into two separate classes starting Monday. I will be handling the older batch. This weekend will be a busy one for me. Went shopping for new stuff for my not-so-new classroom. It's exciting, but the anxiety is there. I don't know why.
Tonight is a date night for me and Felix. Dinner, movie, and then Gray's place for some partying. It's going to be a good weekend.
Have to go, the husbandashery needs my TLC.
Thur January 26, 2006
The Itch Is A Bitch...
...Wow, an update.
Today I had the lamest Berry'd Treasure I have ever had. Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf has failed me, and I am so disappointed. My ice wasn't blended enough, hence, I could chew the ice. Worse, my berries were so chunky, I had to keep spitting pieces out or end up burying them in my molars. Talk about buried treasures, eh? But I still love you, Coffee Bean. Ten times more than I love Starbucks. Honest! *crosses heart*
On other sad news, I developed some stupid allergic reaction to PROACTIV. I have been using the three steps religiously for about 3 months, and I was glad to find a facial care product that actually worked well with my skin. So you must understand my perplexity why suddenly my face decided to react badly to the repairing lotion. For the past 3 days now, I have been suffering from the most terrible itch all over my face. It's so bad that Loratadine's effect doesn't last. The desire to scratch my face against anything that comes into contact with my skin is so strong. And when I mean scratch, I mean "oh-my-god-let-me-roll-my-eyes-to-the-back-of-my-head-that-feels-so-fucking-good" scratch. Sadly, the will to resist the urge is so weak. Hello raw, scaly skin, nice to meet you! Thank god the husbandashery loves me nonetheless.
Speaking of the husband, yesterday was his happy birthday. I didn't get him anything, shame on me. Instead I threw him a surprise dinner, thinking it would make up for the lack of a fancy gift. Haha. And then earlier this afternoon, he took me out on a shopping spree. New clothes for me! Once again, thank god he loves me nonetheless. How long this will last, god pray, forever.
As for our ex-landlady/unggoy, she only gave us back a 2-month refund out of the 4 months payment we made. We may have lost the battle, but the war isn't over. Her nightmare is just about to begin... muwahaha. Seriously, the plan is to wait 'til the post dated check clears, and then let karma bite her in the ass, right when she least expects it. People like her should know never to mess with a white boy and his Pinay. Mutherfucker.
I have to work on my ticket to graduating this April. If only my will to start on it is as strong as my urge to scratch my face, I'd be done already. LOL.
